Knowing there's only so much time,   
I don't rejoice less but more. 
Knowing how many things will now 
not happen, I wish them Godspeed 
and pass them on to someone 
down the line. I honor my 
regrets, the part of me that 
never happened or happened wrong 
and proceed on course though 
the course is not known. Only 
the end is known and some days 
it's a comfort. We live on 
love, whether it's there or 
not and rejoice in it even in 
its absence. If I had known, 
I'd have come here better equipped—
but that's another one of those 
things you can't change—as we 
can't alter that part of us 
that lives on memory, knowing 
all the while that time is not 
real and that what we are we 
never were in the light of that 
timeless place where we really 
belong, have belonged always. 
And what's left then is only 
to bless it all in the light of 
what we don't and will never 
know or at least not here where 
the light is only a shadow of 
that light we almost see sometimes—
that light that's really home. 
                 On my 69th birthday—Dec. 17, 1996  
 
 "Don't Ask the Angels How They Fly" by Albert Huffstickler. Text as published in 
di.verse.ity: an austin international poetry festival anthology, edited by Scott Wiggerman and Margaret Ward-Barrett (Austin Poets International, Inc., 1997). This anthology is 
downloadable. 
Many thanks to subscriber Jazz Jaeschke for locating the source of this poem.
Art credit: Untitled 
image from a beautiful set of black and white photographs by Hengki Lee. See the entire gallery at this 
link.